My ''father'' always says that I'm a 'mistake' in his life, meaning that he never wanted me and doesn't want me... and it's not just one time, he has said it more than like 10 times and it's been happening for at least 2 years now (ever since I hit my teenager years) _{whenever he's angry at me he's always saying that he should've used a condom 15 years ago...} and it's funny cause he treats my brother like he's a God or something. I'm the youngest in the family, and my father goes ahead and calls me whatever the hell he wants. (e.g, stupid,  heavy, [lol what the hell does he even mean by ''heavy''?!?! ) and lonely)

I really can't wait to graduate college or university or whatever in a few years (still in grade 9 btw lol) hopefully so I can get out of this fucking house :/